终于想通了。真的想不到原来这么多人看的懂中文。谢谢你们的email. (ps:我也不会告诉你们那人是谁=p)
我自己都觉得不好意思因为我的中文超级烂。赫赫。
其实我用中文写出自己的心情是因为不想让我最要好的朋友当心. 我知道他们都有读我的 blog,而且看不懂中文,所以不想让他们知道因为真的很懒的去解释.
但又不想憋在心理.....aih**所以只好在自己的空间里诉苦..............

有时在好的朋友都会有讨厌对方的时候.但朋友是一辈子的所以很快就会忘记不开心的过去.其实她没有背叛我。只是对别人说我的不满.可能没有勇气对我说吧. 或是她可能根本没有说什么不好听的,只是make a comment,但传来传去就变成其它meaning.
我自己想想其实可能我自己对人的态度也有问题. 我已经很满足因为我身旁的朋友都对我超好.
我选择相信她.我最无助的时候她都陪伴着我....她要是讨厌我的话为什么会为我付出呢???我有时候觉得她真的很像是个姐姐的照顾我，煮好吃的给我吃.....要是她讨厌我的话还对我那么好......那我真的是无语了................................
算了!!!我不想在提不开心的事情!!!说些开心的吧.......

Do you guys still remember Jennifer love Hewit? Ghost whispers season 4 is coming out soon.(*I love all the outfits she wore in the drama*).Gossip girls should be out in a week too....ho ho ho......*super duper excited*Anyway, I read a article about jennifer love hewit which really give me the motivation to stick with my diet. She basiclly lost 18 pounds in 10 weeks by exercise and eating healthy!!! I wanna be curvy like her.....lean and toned.....<3<3<3>

我真的对自己失望透了!!
还以为已经长大了，以为看人一定不会错，谁知我原来什么都不知道.
听了那些谣言，真的有点不敢相信.我通常不会去理会，但这次有点不同,觉得那些人不像是在挑拨离间,可能我真的对她不好,还是作错了什么?为什么她不跟我说呢?为什么在我背后说我的不是?
说实话我人不是很好,我脾气超差,我不喜欢的人我一定不大会去理会,连说话也懒的跟她说,根本不会给他机会让他背叛我.我想我必须自我检讨，可能我自己做了什么让她讨厌了.可能我的思想真的跟马来西亚女生不同,我真的不知道,也不想知道......................非常难过的说.我决定给她写email,觉得自我保护其实没有什么意义！不管我怎么保护自己还是被别人伤害.....所以我后来就放弃保护了！干脆就直接彻底对别人敞开心里的事情了！不想隐藏自己的想法让自己活的很累，也不想看见自己面对自己讨厌的东西！最好的自卫就是攻击！所以与其隐藏自己，不如了解别人！
不想了，去gym吧,我昨天偷懒,所以今天必须补回.
希望累了之后就不会乱想了....!!!

哭***真的非常想念我英国的好朋友........没有你们我真的快疯了***

If it's possible, i want this gigantic chanel bag to store my life and all my clothes ..Teeheeeee

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Also, I need a new haircut. I hate my layered hair...sigh* i will not have my hair cut in malaysia again. The hairdressers doesn't seem to understand what i want. My hair texture is weird.I hate layers on the top...my hair gets frizzy easily. Chinese hairdressers are arragont. They don't listen to their customers. They believe in themselves(which is not a bad thing either i guess?)
Jul recommend me komachi In singapore. I can't wait to try it out....Apparently the hairdressers are all japanese and it's much cheaper than the japanese hairdressers london!!!!hehe...I want my hair short..and dye!!i need inspiration....

I like the one on the far right....What do you think?

Fringe is not in fashion anymore...

even katemoss grow hers long...

no more fringe for Linda =P

*Happy Happy*
Thank you all for the birthday wishes. I will reply all the msges and emails very soon.^^ Now i know who my real friends are...giggles**
Some cards arrive through post today so thank you very much.....
Also the person who i wanted to thank most is my BB. I luv the pink heart charm bracelet but prob wouldn't wear it cause i hate wearing expensive jewerelly!!><
Birthdays are not cool anymore once you reach 20. Growing old sucks and i really do wish i am 18 again. I used to get so excited on my birthday and had big celebrations . But now, i really wish i could just forget it's my birthday cause i hate being reminded that i am 1 year older. =(

MY birthday wish : NO WRINKLES and incease my metabolism plz!!

Big hugs and kisses for everyone* will update soon*xoxoxoxoxo

I am looking forward to this Sunday. I am praying that Malaysia will get a gold medal in badminton at least. Did anyone watch the Olympics opening ceremony? It was spectacular and the choreography was breath taking....how i wish i could watch it live. In the Chinese forums, people from china actually thought it was boring and crap. They think that only stupid foreigners were impress. *gosh..aren't the chinese hard to please)I am actually quite proud that the Chinese get to hold the Olympics finally. I personally don't think London can beat Beijing's opening ceremony. *hehe*I quite like the 2008 slogan too. It's "one world, one dream""同一个世界 同一个梦想"

I am quite annoyed that Olympics is related to politics. Why can't those stupid terrorist give some peace??Are terrorist just mentally retarded weirdos? Tibetans are just lame ....they should just get over it and be more hard working . *bloody hippies*. BBC reporters are lamer. I swear ppl are racist towards the Chinese nowdays. Nearly every article written by BBC are followed up by racist comments. I know china isn't that great but isn't it a bit mean trying to make china look really bad? Some people don't even show sympathy over the earthquake incident . I can't believe a pretty girl like Sharon stone shouted out proudly that the chinese deserve the earthquake and thinks it's karma for what the chinese did to the Tibetans (Yes..she even said that tibetans are all her "FRIENDS"......). Why don't she just commented on the chinese governments instead. What a stupid cow. Grrrrrrrrr

*sigh* Enough venting before i start moaning about the uighurs ......

Oh yeah,I think i secretly fall in love with the Hermes mini Kelly bags. I actually thought they are nicer than Chanel bags. O_O Arg...falling in love with something expensive is not good. Then again, i know that i won't waste my money on one until i can truely afford one without using my credit card...hehe*Or maybe i should just make one myself since Hermes actually give you instructions on how to make one

Two my favourite australian brand is bardot & Sass . Cheap , affordable, rockish,cute, Layers,and it reminds me of urban outfitters~!

To that special someone:

Please get better soon. Sorry for not being there for you & you know i wish i could. Even though i never met "him", just let it go. I know is easy for me to say so, cause if i am the one facing such awkward situation, I wouldn't know what to do . I know we both haven't speak to each other for ages, I know you still read my blog and i still read yours, so don't be sorry.... that email shocked me and made me cried. we're best friends forever remember?Even though we haven't seen /speak to each other for ages, that special feeling is always gonna be there. Someone who i can call best friends is so precious to me especially i have so many frenemy.


As for that girl, Ignore her, Blank her, don't give her the attention she wanted. If i learn how to deal with it, you can too. At least she is not as bad as that "alien". I am sure you remember that fat alien?I don't think anyone in this world can be as bad as her. Yes..fat , Ugly and Horny...!!!You remember she went to all my friends and try to manipulate them? If i can ignore her, don't let her piss me off, you can too !!~*hugs*

My life in melbourne is good. I been a super good daughter and i spend all my time with my family & in the gym. Even though my 2 brothers is driving me mad, but i guess we don't fight as much anymore. I also been super healthy too. I haven't touch any junk food or unhealthy fried food for ages. I haven't been eating out either. All i wanted to do is lose as much weight as possible and shock James in september. Oh yeah, my uncles too...they said i gain so much weight ...that really upset me. I don't want to be a fatty......everyone in asia is super skinny....i just wanna be toned like miranda ker!!!!!
I haven't been shopping that much either...I haven't really spend much on myself...I guess i don't need shopping therapy since my family is giving me all the attention i needed( I still love reading about fashion though =p)...i think i know why i love shopping that much now...it's either because i am stress or my bf is not giving me the attention that i wanted.... I am also hooked with my new slr camera. I been playing with it so often that my mum thinks i am crazy. Last night i sat at borders for an hour just to read about photography techniques etc....I kinda got my mum hooked on fashion/gossip magazines. She even know latest news on kate moss and angelina jolie..hohoho~ Well, I need to get a new 50mm lens when i am in singapore...i wonder if it's cheaper to get in thailand or singapore..god knows....

here's a test shot:

Well, that's it for now. I know that weirdo reads your email but not my blog.... i will post msg for you through here...miss you Loadsssss Sweetieeeee, Luv you...& Take care...xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

These pictures are haunting me.....Can someone give me more info of this young talented photographer. All i know is she is a 22 year old artist from north of sweden. Hopefully one day i could take beautiful photos like these. I need a new 50mm lens......I showed the pictures to my mum and she "wish & hope" i am half as talented .She said if i ever take such great pictures, she will get them printed and hang it at our new house.........Just watch mum......give me some more time...
I am still learning.......
One day i will......

OMFG...swedish girls are just..HOT

I finally finish reading the instruction manuel for my camera. I recently just purchase a canon 450d and it's my very first slr camera. I love it to bits and i highly recommend it cause it's light , small and it takes really good pictures. It's annoying cause once you start using a slr camera, you're hooked !!
I also been reading a lot of photography tips online and i found a great site (click here) which give good slr tips. Check it out if you have a slr camera too!!hehe!!
I will start upload more pictures when i get to singapore. The internet in Melbourne kinda sucks...there is limited bandwidth so i now i can't DL movies or drama anymore =(